Friday, July 23, 2010

An indiscreetness

H : aah, finally the Friday ends
(he tumbles into the bed noisily and trundles towards her.)
W : so?
(the questioning is sharper and more playful through her eyes
than her utterance.)
H : so nothing
(he dodges cleverly)
W : hhuhuumm
H : nothing but I have to be with my wife for two
long days
(he sighs loudly)
W : no problem, Sir, You can go and work tomorrow also;
nobody expects You to be romancing around here
H : but I am afraid that I miss my appointment with my lover
W : oohho
H : aren't You eager to know how is She?
W : No
H : but still I will tell You
(he starts to describe her exaggeratedly)
H : She is so pretty,very fond of me; unlike my wife,
She doesn't boss me around; She listens to my words.
W : then marry her, divorce your wife
(she plays it along)
H : There is a little problem in doing that
W : what is that?
(she sounds slightly being tired of his plays)
H : Though my wife is high-and-mighty, tyrannical, she is wise;
She gives me good advice on my office works, in fact she is
cleverer than me.
(a grin just peeps through her lips)
W : what about your lover?
H : She is stupider than me
W : enough, enough, I am flattered
H : what is this? I am telling the facts; this is the problem
with women, they don't always accept the truth, but only
when they like it
W : shut up
(She smiles at him, he makes a romantic face at her as an
acknowledgment)
H : tell me, what do you want?
W : nothing
H : don't lie, your eyes tries to say something to me
W : it may try to reveal the secret that you are naughty.
H : Is it? naughty eyes; or maybe they try to think what did
this ugly creature do to attract such a lovely girl
W : no, I have ordered them not to think of it
H : why?
W : for they can't understand it
H : I am defeated pitifully; okay, plans for the weekend?
W : I have lots of work; I have to wash clothes, clean the house.
H : no problem, as usual I will help You in those, what else?
W : You have to be with me for the two complete days.
H : You will say all these now, but then You will whine that
I bore You

W : yes, You are boring but I like it
H : shouldn't I be aware of such paradoxical statement?
W : no, it is a broken symmetry which brings the
existence of love
H : excellent, Mam, You have mastered the art of
winning over me
(She smiles again, so does he)
(barely a minute has past away in silence)
W : I need a baby
(the words cautiously and gingerly walks out of her mouth)
(he doesn't respond for a while)
H : shall we go out for a movie tomorrow?
W : Did You hear me?
(her fingers caress his forehand)
H : yes
(though the sound is phonetically simple, he struggles on it)
W : can't you understand me?
H : I have told You before, right? let us not talk about it now.
W : Listen to me, Dear; it has been two and half years since we
married, we should plan for a baby now.
H : no, not now
W : why?, I don't understand it
H : because I am not ready for it
W : what is that You are not ready?
(his lips too aren't ready to move now)
W : we will do it once divinely
(he breathes out his No heavily)
W : what do You say?
(her words try to be persuasive but fails)
H : Is that enough?
(he questions with a sharp tone)
W : what do You mean?
H : Is my single active sperm a big license to bring
a beautiful Being to this vicious world?
W : I dont get You
H : let me be clear, forget about the population growth,
poverty,war, climate change, etc; can we guarantee a
minimum safety for that little Being?
W : why not?
H : how?
W : what is this How? we can protect That
H : You carry That only for ten months and I don't do
that too
W : come on, don't drift
H : no I don't, do You know how many times I missed my
parents? sometimes I would be sitting right next to them,
but still miss them. Once I cried lying on my mother's lap
that She,a Being who spent most of her life for me, couldn't read.
(he pauses to cloak his emotions under a generality)
Here everyone is destined to be alone; when we were
children, our mind safely curled up under the flimsy
covers of innocence; but as we grew, it slowly and proudly
started to expose itself peeling those thin layers of whiteness
with the knife of knowledge, before completely and defencelessly
stripping naked to the heat of truths.
W : You are unnecessarily complicating your thoughts and
worrying about the inevitability. Maybe the circumstances
have forced You to be more emotional.
H : Is it? when we are in sex, when my thought kisses the
memories of our affection, all I wish is that I have to love You
and only You, forever; but then the very next day, why should
I get drawn in by a girl somewhere in a market or park who is
completely stranger to me. Why is that always we have to dig
the darker side of us equally as the brighter side of us?
why does some part of me always smirk at my benevolence?
why is that always the inhumane 'I' sniffs the 'for me'
selfishly? If You blame these are instinctive and
circumstantial, then all these hellish things are the
inherent forms of this world where a pure beautiful
Being is brought in mindlessly.
W : what do You want me to do now?
(She sounds very tired and despondent)
H : can we wholeheartedly say on our conscience
that we are good humans?
W : May be not, but we always want to be good Beings, right?;
see, it is not that what exactly things are matters, but how do You
believe them to be matters.
(a glimmer of hope reeks in her words)
H : may be yes, but everyday I die with my duality;
Here everybody wants to be good but they can't
protect their own good thoughts, not even for the
time it takes for them to think that the same
has to be materialised. As a human being, the
so-called civilised, highly intellectual being, if we
can't give a bare minimum safety to our thoughts,
how could I guarantee protection for my little lovely
baby?
(She remains silent.)
H : I understand You; though I exercise my mind
with these thoughts, I too long to carry that little
creature,indelibly stained with your blood, in my hands,
and kiss that little fingers; I do want to tell That all the
stories of the world though That doesn't understand it.
W : come on, Dear, let us be more practical on this matter

H : again the same compulsion to be practical for existence
kills the very nature of human mind.
W : whatelse can we do but to submit to it?
H : we understand it,right? that we are caught in the
cobweb of nature, then why do we be indiscreet and bring in
a new life to this world to end up in the same?
(She sighes)
W : I am tired
(her sad voice dies out )
H : don't worry, You will win finally as always;
the inevitability will dawn on me eventually and
the sagacity will fall against the run of play.
(his mind gropes for peace in the wilderness of the failure)


12 comments:

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